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You are The DevilMateriality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition. Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it. What Tarot Card are You? |
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MiCh3Ll M. [L]eft``To The Path Of HeR Dreams`` | 11:30 AM |
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Count Dwn--- 3 more days! |
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Yahoo!!! Another 3 More days.. and i'm out of here. Cant wait for it. But yet i kind of afraid of steppin out of here. Got used to everythin here. All of a sudden i'm goin to get out of here and into another new workin environment with no friends or familar faces, it will be a totally new experience. But i cant seem to wait for the brand new experience that i am goin to get. All the new things that i'm goin to learn. All the new ppl that i'm goin to meet. And the new life that i'm goin lead. I juz cant wait for it. I think it will be fantastic man. SO in conclusion, I will juz hav to push away all the doubts and comfort that i'm in now to step into a world full of spectaculors unexpected moments. I just cant wait. Seriously cant wait..... Lets talk abt the past wkend that i had. Fri Went to meet up with derryn n jessie at eunos for a talk den jessie send me to dbl o. Was at dbl o till 3am. Sat Stay home the whole day. Sun Had a meaningless sunday at grand parents place. This was how i spend my wkend. think only fri sounds like a better day. Other then that the rest of the wkend sounds boring rite?? wahaha... well this is life. what can i do? Anyway for now, i'm lookin forward to this wed. Gona club at dbl o again. Thur will be the last day of work. Fri night will be goin to kl with my parents and baox. Sat night will club at KL clubs. Sun will go up to genting n gamble. Mon most pro will go over to baox's place or else will be goin home. If not will go back on tue or wed. Wed will go club again. Thur will be my bro's graduation day. Fri will be another night of clubbin. Sat as well. Sun - Tue will slack. Wed start work... That is how i will spend my 2 wks. Well... lookin forward for the clubbin days. wahaha... ok goin to knock off soon... juz cant wait. |
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MiCh3Ll M. [L]eft``To The Path Of HeR Dreams`` | 11:32 AM |
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MoodSwing~~ Day 03 |
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Oh dear!! I'm still having the moodswing. It was like, I totally have no mood to do anything at all. I just want to slack. I dun even wan to feel anything except to slack. Anyway, today is friday the 13th. Early in the morning, i was damn pissed off. Was late for work n had a quarrel Baox. He said that I have changed. Well! Maybe that is true. Maybe I have really change. I juz wan to be left alone. Just totally alone for the next few days. I dont feel like having any contact with anyone. Just me, myself and I. I just want to go back to my single life. I realised that my attention spend is real short. I can be with someone who is so in love with one person. Yet the next moment I can be totally emotionless. Such a drastic change that I, Myself dont even know who am i anymore. I dont even know what i want anymore. Until my emotions really start to surface back, it was then that things get clearer. For now, I just want to go back to my single life. I miss those days that i do not need to be liable to anyone. I do not need to be controlled by anyone. Just think of it in such a manner. I am a soul with so much spirit and freedom. How can I be lock up? Locking me up is like killing me. This is what Baox is doin now!! He has totally no confident, so afraid that I will be dating other guys, when he is fully aware that other then meeting him after work, I will go nowhere except home. So what is there to worry about? Unknowingly, he has input a unknown force which is known as pressure onto me. This is an unnecessary pressure which I do not seek or want it at all. If he were to continue like this, I'm not sure if I'm able to handle this kind of pressure anot. I fear one day, i will go beserk and just ignore all the feelings I have and hurt him further in the end. Which, in actual fact, not something that I want to see/happen at all. Oh dear! What am i suppose to do? I try to communicate with him. But it doesnt seems to work. At the end of the whole conversation, we will only ended up with more quarrels and more unhappiness. I dont want it to happen. But it is something not within my means. ARGH!!! Anyway I will hold on to this r/s until one day when i really cannot take it. Then mayb that will be the end of it. Let's hope that this day will never arrive. I'm looking forward to this wkend, tonite meeting jessie and after that goin to dbl o to club. Tml most pro will slp till late and play mahjong. Sun will slack at home. Kind of like this kind of lifestyle. Then, next wed, will dance like mad, fri will go KL with mummy n daddy. Then will start my new job. Kind of excited with my new job, but yet am quite reluctant to start to early. Still feel like resting more... Hmmm.... HOw i wish...... --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Baox, If u ever visit this website pls do giv me some breathing space and some confidence in our r/s can? I cannot handle ur suspicious every now n then. I will keep you certain of our r/s as long as possible. But if u insist of suspecting this n that then i rather u end it now juz to spare us both the misery. I cannot take such treatment, I believe you too. SO pls, think it through k! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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MiCh3Ll M. [L]eft``To The Path Of HeR Dreams`` | 11:51 AM |
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MoodSwing ~~ Play!!! |
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I seriously have no idea what is wrong with me. Think i'm having my usual moodswing, which michelle claims to be normal. But I stil think its kind of weird. It's being awhile since I hav such a moodswing. Think this moodswing may be link to the feelin of wanting something which i knw i cant hav it. If i insist on having it, there will be ppl ard me who will get hurt. Terribly hurt. This is something which i want to avoid. ARGH!!! I need something to divert my attention. I want to club. I want to dance. I want to flirt. I wan to play pool. I wan to be drained of all energy so that my brains dont need to function. Hai.... What m i suppose to do now? I'm so lost! Can someone please grab a knife and stab me to death? Help!!!!! |
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MiCh3Ll M. [L]eft``To The Path Of HeR Dreams`` | 12:34 PM |
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It was so touching. Such a joy when they got in. but they were all fantastic man... i love watching it. This guy is fantastic... If there's a guy in sg dance like this, i will be madly in love with him man.... Omg!!! he's so funny. like wat the nasty Simon says; more enjoyable den watching micheal jackson's show. Look at this!! they are awesome!!! |
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MiCh3Ll M. [L]eft``To The Path Of HeR Dreams`` | 5:58 PM |
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SICK!!! |
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the ger is damn good. almost move to tears. wahaha... Anyway last wkend was fun, went to club on fri and sat nite. and the outcome of such fun was to fall sick. What the hack!!! ARGH!!! I'm damn sick. My head is damn giddy and i have being sneezing for the whole morning. n i'm feelin so cold... OMG!!! ARGH!!! I wan to go home. Really not feeling well... Fu*k!!! Mummy can i juz go home??? |
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MiCh3Ll M. [L]eft``To The Path Of HeR Dreams`` | 10:29 AM |
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Dilemma!! |
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For the past few days, I have being thinkin. Thinking if i shld request for early release. Stayin in the office with nothing to do is a torture. Looking and hoping for the time to pass by every now n then. Tryin to dig for things to do to kill time is a horror. I hate it. i hate being bored. At least if i'm home, i knw i can juz lay ard and slp or even watch dvd. but in office, i'm totally stuck. WTF!!! i juz hate it. But come to think of it. if i'm the one to request for early release, this will be treated as unpaid leave. Meaning, i'll not be paid. Meaning, I'll be very broke. Unpaid = Broke, Damn Broke!!! SO... in conclusion i think i will stay till the end. Wanted to save enough money so that i wont be so broke. Thus, decided not to shop at all. Who knws that without stepping out of office i will also get to spend money as well. My colleague juz show us some clothes that her friends got. n in the end, guess wat!!! i bought 2 of it. Its cheap la. but still i spend money. here is a sample of one of it.  Well!!! How is it? nice rite? Ok now come on,make a guess how much is this top?? can u guess the correct amt?? juz guess? $30+?? Nah, cheaper... $20+? Well..... wat u think? of cos cheaper la.. The actual price is $12.90.... Wahaha.... cheap rite? well.. well... i think its damn worth it lo... haha.... Ok... enough of shoppin. Talk about something else that makes me so frustrated last week end.... I came to knw of a bitch who actually backstabs me n baox after helpin her so much. She is a malaysian. Fu*king malaysian girls. I cant believe that she will do that. It was like, i'm being kind. But i start to believe in this, being kind doesnt pay off, it will only cause u more trouble. Thus, i'm goin to learn how to be mean or rather cunning. I still cant believe that she did that. Now i understand y even the previous landlord dislikes her. She's juz so fuck up!!! I help her cos she kept crying and says that the landlord and other tenants bully her. Now i understand y is that so. SImply bcos she's one hell of a fu*k up person. Not only so, becos of her, baox got dislike by other friends when he did nothing at all. to add on to it, he even got blamed and scolded by some idiots who totally have no clue of what the hell happened. I feel like punching those ppl. Now i'm goin to curse and swear at those ppl. Really cant get over it. Making me damn frustrated... ARGH!!! Fu*King Ginny and Alfred!!! What make u guys thin that u're the best? I'm helping u guys out purely due to friendship and becos Ginny, you are Baox good frien. WIthout introducing him in, i would not hav knw himl. BUT this does not giv u the right to take things for granted. You are juz a fu*king Bitych... Who the Fu*king hell do u think u're? U are juz nth but a pathetic soul with an idiotic clown face that everyone pities. Y say that cos everyone is fu*king irritated with u. At times they are willing to be with you plainly bcos u'r juz a pathetic homeless soul. Nothing except useless tears that are ur assets. Nothing but a hollow brain is what your are. U Fu*king Bitych... And ur useless Boyfrien.... What makes u think u're have any single right to call n reprimand others when it is YOUR 'PRECIOUS' GIRLFRIEND who is at fault?? So what if she's a bitych (one with pussy and no brain)? Does this means that she has the rights to order ppl ard to do her biddings? She is naught but a bitych with no brains. So please start to wake ur useless brain up and open up ur minute eyes n see what is really goin on before leaping on someone and give them the vedict which u were being blinded so. U're not stupid, this i will giv u credit. u're just dumb by chosing such a GF.... Anyway, i believe u guys will get what awaits u in return. 'Karma' is what i believe in... If u can treat people who are so trueful to u, then i believe u'll get back the same treatment or even worst. Well, i'll pray for the latter. OK!!! Done with the complaint.. Now i goin to annonce something. Yesterday i bought the yellow top rite? (FYI i juz updated the blog again. Wahaha... cos i cant finish yesterday. SO when u refer to the above half of it was written yesterday) Tdy after readin Mandy's blog, i went to http://www.forever21.com/ n bought another 3 tops. here are the pics of it.
 Nice rite? 3 pcs only Abt $120. So each piece abt $40. That is like worth it lo. The 2 jumpsuit already cost more den that. if i were to get it in singapore i think per pcs cost roughly $60 to $100 le. So this is a fantastic bargain. wahaha.. ok i goin off le. bye |
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MiCh3Ll M. [L]eft``To The Path Of HeR Dreams`` | 9:31 AM |