ARGH!!! I'm like so pack with things to do. and i'm so brain dead. 1st time in my life even after work i'll still keep thinkin of work. so my life is really abt work work work n work. the only time i think i can stop thinking abt work is when i'm clubbin. but recently, bcos of him, i will usually club till ard 1 i will leave. its like i dun feel the fun. i mean as compare to the past. i will usually club till morning, like 6am. now its like 1am. when everything juz started i'm leaving.feels kind of like duh!!! the thing is wat can i do. i mean i've make my choice. so i can only stick to it. i do enjoy clubbin with him n the whole gang. its so fun. but sad to say we hav to leave early cos he needs to wake up early for the work the next day. so tts the thing. well!! i kind of miss XLG. its like with him we're always quarreling every day. at least once a day. now i understand how detestful i'm in the past. cos its like i feel that he's so like me. the past me. well.. i think i've found my match. he's really testing my patient. seriously is. 1st time met someone who's testing my patient. seriously testing it. i mean those who knw me well. kwns that i've a very bad temper. n for ur info, when i'm with him, i'm usually the one who gets scolding. i feel so stupid n so xiao nu ren, this is sth that u will seldom get to see. hai.... feel so miserable. i mean i'm still a ger, n i'm suppose to be doted. but not to b train to b treated like a man. anyway its so miserable. but yet i enjoy being with him. he knws how to make me smile when i'm pissed. care for him when needed and even make me jealous every now n den. tts sth thats seldom seen in me. well. think this is life. juz hav to live with wat u hav n learn how to appreciate everything that are given to you. otherwise at the end of the day we will tend to lose everything that was once given to us. in which i dun wan that to happen. so will hav to learn to feel content. anyway enough of all this.
well its 9pm. and i'm still in office. OFFICE!!! working overtime. there's so much things for me to do. i juz cant seem to finish it. but yet i'm here updating my blog. i think everyone needs to divert their attention every once in awhile. so now its time for me to divert my attention. haha... well. i enjoy my job now. but i'm so afraid that i wont b able to do well. when u're given more task to do, the greater the responsibility. tts where the stress comes from. well!! startin to get used to it. anywya do i hav a choice? i dun think so. this is my job. i juz hav to appreciate watever i'm given. anyway got to go. lots of things for me to complete. so see u guys ard again. oh ya!
if any of u guys wan to travel. there's a SA Tours fair coming on 20 Aug. which is where i'll be. n camping overnight there.(need to do set up n stuff) all the good burgains are all there. so guys i'll see u there. hehe. |
